A lot of young people are struggling with pornography movies and need help. Grace is really struggling and needs help. This is another True Life Stories from one of our counseling Sessions, via One on One, Facebook, Twitter, Whatsapp, Email etc, stories we share here are with their permission. The only thing we change is the person's real name and address.My name is Grace, from Kogi State am 36 years old, married for 3 years now. My issue is really disturbing me.
It started 17 years ago when I was 19 years of age, I was still a virgin and thought the only way to keep my virginity was to involve in Porn. It was fun for me then, because my attention was only on the movies and my books. I graduated with a good grade and was proud of myself.
Men wasn't my thing, at 33 I was still a virgin when I got married and I thought marriage was going to end this habit. To my greatest shock, am yet to stop it and my husband isn't aware I watch porn or enjoy every bit of it. he doesn't go through my phone so he has never seen them on my phone. I watch it anytime I feel like masturbating, in the bathroom, kitchen anywhere. It's becoming embarrassing, as I can do it even at work, church, the shopping mail toilet. I excuse myself into the toilet to watch and masturbate.
This life is really messing up my sex life, my husband thinks because I married as a virgin that's why am not into sex with him. He is trying to understand in every area. I just don't know what to do anymore, I have prayed and fasted, i have deleted all the videos, yet I find myself downloading even more, or visit their site.
I can't help myself anymore, I can't tell my husband because am afraid I may lose him for not telling him about this. Honestly I though it will end once am married, but i thought wrong.
Please help me save myself, my marriage and sex life. God bless you.
Enter your comment...you need counseling. thank God you are involved in one already and at the same you need to be seriously determined. may God help you get through it
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ReplyDeleteNothing with born with, you learn how to watch the movies, you will still learn how to stop it. Thank God you are in right place. this is a lesson to others that we should not learn bad thing.
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