WHO DO I BLAME?

 Dear TOLD Readers (The Only Love Doctor's Readers), sometimes we choose a life that lead to our destruction Femi (not real name) is paying for that choice now. Remember whatever story you read on this blog are True Life Stories. from our counselling Sessions with hundreds of people weekly, via One on One, Facebook, Twitter, Whatsapp, Email etc. so we hear and see these stories. The only thing we change is the person's real name and address. Continue to read his story.

My name is Femi, an only child from Osun State, resides in Lagos am 26 years old, right now I cant really define my life as am lost.

My miseries started 6 months ago when I tested positive to HIV, that was when I stumbled unto your blog. Am confused as I don't know who to blame concerning my predicaments. Let me start from the very beginning.

I was raised by a single mom, I never knew who my dad was because my mom told me he rejected the pregnancy when she informed him. He claimed he was married and never wanted anything to do with the child, she should abort the pregnancy, but for fear of losing her life she decided to keep the pregnancy with the hope that one day he will come for me. She waited for 17 years for him, I have waited for 26 years for him am still waiting.

I lost my mom when I turned 17 to cancer, she was all I had and my backbone, she provided everything I needed to live a conformable life, she worked so hard that sometimes I wondered how I was gonna pay her back. Suddenly she was no more. It hurts so much losing her.

After battling for months to move on, I met a guy (Nelson) who was like a saviour to me. He was there at all time for me and gradually I fell in love with his good heart. He asked me to move in with him since the apartment I stayed with my mom had expired. Gladly with open hands I accepted the offer, it was too good to be real. Few months after I move in with Nelson, he introduced me to 419 business. I was 18+ as at that time and for the first time in my life I hit over 2 million naira. I was intoxicated with joy and wished my mom was around to see that, and the deals came rolling in and money came flowing in too . One thing kept bothering me all through the first period I stayed with Nelson. And I asked him Why he didn't have a girlfriend or was he not going to get married. Because at 35 he didn't have a girlfriend. He told me he was in love with someone and very soon I will meet the person. 

4 months later, I got home one evening to a scented and romantic setting, and on the dinning table was a picture of me with the writing I LOVE YOU! I was surprised and short of words as I did Love him too, but didn't understand his own level of love. There was a direction to where he was and I followed every step right inside his room. He was naked and for the first time I felt I wanted to have him. He carried me to the bed and we make love, that was the first time I made love. I loved him! That was how we became a couple, we did our 419 business together, had great sex and spent all the time having fun. Until 7 months ago when I saw a test result in his shoe rack testing positive to HIV. My whole world came crushing. He has been living with it for years and managed it well that was why it didn't blow to AIDS.

Am in a mess right now, how did I get myself into this, I have since moved out from his place as he couldn't explain why he did that to me. He kept begging me to come back after all we have the virus, we could manage our lives together. I don't want such life anymore I have cut all contacts with him (not picking his calls). Because I need healing in my life, I want to live a new life. But It's difficult moving on, having spent 8 years of my life with this man, who loved me and showed me care when I had none, but I want a new life for me and if possible for him too. Help me please. It took me 5 months to finally share this with you. PLEASE HELP ME! PLEASE!

NOTE: Team Diamond is yet to give him counsel on this, we will as soon as we get response from TOLD Readers. As this is his wish, to Share his story.

People are asking if Femi is a Babe or Guy. Femi is a GUY!