WILL GOD FORGIVE ME?

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My name is Stella, from Kwara State but based in Lagos now. Am 27 years old, a marketer with one of the leading banks. Am so scared sharing this story but I know I will be relieved when am through sharing it.

Am kinda confused how to start but I will try and start somewhere and be short about the whole story. Few months ago I went to visit one of my spiritual father (a pastor) as usual since I do that every week. But this particular day his wife was not around and I wasn't aware. Though It wasn't any issue visiting in her absence because on many occasions I have slept over at their house.

They have being my mentors for over 10 years and there was even a time I lived with them for 4 years because of school. On this particular day I wasn't expecting it to be different as it was my routine to visit. On getting there I met daddy in deep thoughts and I was worried something had happened to mummy. I asked him and he said she was fine and had gone to Sagamu to see one of their daughters who was a little strong.

I asked him what it was and if I could help, he asked me to promise I will help and also not look at him different from who he has being. I promised him, but what he told me it was shocking and unbelievable as I never expected that from him. He told me he was lust over a particular girl in the choir and didn't want to commit adultery in anywhere after being married for 33 years. I felt very sorry for him and we prayed together about the issue. 

I don't understand what happened next because we ended up having sex right there in their home. I only felt it would be better if he did it with me than with someone else so the disgrace will remain within. But I was totally wrong because that singular act resulted to pregnancy. I aborted the pregnancy and didn't tell him about it (till now he has no Idea about it). I feel I have gone to a length that God will not forgive me. I know it was my fault and I admit that I was wrong to have done it. I have not visited them since that day and mummy is worried about me. I cant even pick her calls and he keeps calling for me to forgive him. Can I ever redeem my pride with mummy and her children, they don't know what happened because no one told them. But how do I face them am confused, Please help me.